Gone Forever

Oh my. I've had a MOST interesting weekend! *Breaths* Ok, how do I summarize this? In one sentance? God took my heart off the market forever - it's HIS now, completely. That doesn't mean I'll never marry a human man, but it does mean that not even my husband will ever have my heart. My heart belongs only to God now forever. That doesn't mean that "I" can't ever love my husband or kids or family/friends either! But instead it means two things: 1) My heart is Protected by Him so that it's ok to Love others and it won't get broken because I trust Him and hide in Him and His Love for me, and 2) It's not my love anyway, because it's not my heart anymore (it's His now), but rather it's His Love shining through me because of His Love for others that they will see in me. It means that while I might marry a man, it's not him that I'm in love with completely, but rather Jesus in him, though I'm sure there will be things about my husband that will attract me to him. Basically, only God could break my heart if He wanted to, but I know He won't because He doesn't want to. He's the only one who I can trust completely with my heart - He's the only one who'll ever really be there for me, though He will and does use others to be there for me as well.